The Importance of Families

I'll be the first one to admit I have a wonderful family! I also married into a wonderful family too. The support of everyone around me in this time has really just been awesome! God's working things out in wonderful ways through my WHOLE family!
Saturday was a very emotional day as it was the memorial service for my Grandpa Greene. It was good to see the family and have the support of my husband there as well. They had the Honor Guard do their presentation for him as he was in the service for a few years. My cousin Brian recieved the flag as he is still Active Duty Air Force right now. That was emotional hearing the Taps playing and seeing the flag being folded and given. I didn't hold together too well. But as with everything, time moves on even though the ache is still there.
It brought back the reality that our days on this earth are numbered and can be taken away at any moment. I'm so glad I've accepted Jesus Christ into my heart and I live for him daily. Yes, there are times I fall away but with the reality that there is a real hell, I try to constantly check my heart and make sure I'm living right and not backsliding or in sin. It's hard to see some family that appear not to be living for Christ daily and I pray that somehow they will be able to realize it before it's too late and they pass into eternity! I love them so much and can only pray as it's ultimately their decision once informed.
I'm so glad that I get the chance to live closer to family now. North Carolina was sooo far and I know if I was still living there I would not have had the opportunity to come home for the service. I love my Best Friends Ginita and Steve back there and I wish there was someway we could all be together without us moving back to NC. And I miss Kira and Shelby as I was developing such good friendships with them before we left. Its a hard place to be but both Jeremy and I still really believe this is where God wants us for now. I know I'm having some hardships finding friendships but I'd rather be in the will of God and he will provide everything else. Signing off until tomorrow... GG

Did you ever...?

I'm sure I'm not the only one. But maybe there are not very many. I did something I knew was wrong but I was bored and curiosity got the best of me (this wasn't anything illegal...). Did you ever do something you regretted that came back to bite you in the butt?? Well turned out I stumbled onto something that cut me to the heart. I guess knowing what people really do think of you (not just what they say to your face) is a bitter-sweet thing. Mostly hurtful but hey, the truth hurts. The thing is not all of it was true. It was facts mixed with untruths. Whether this person was just spouting because of being angry or maybe wanting to acquire pity from others, it doesn't matter: lies are lies. What a way to start a relationship with people in your area and in your church where you are going to be living for a while. Not so cool on this end of it. But it was my fault. I was in the wrong and I have repented but it doesn't take the hurt away.
I miss my Ginita! She was the one true saved friend that I count on the most. And now I'm 3000 miles away. Tomorrow I head up to Wickenburg so hopefully my brain will leave this crap in SV and I can have a decent weekend (even though I'm going for my grandpa's funeral) with my family there.

A New Healthy Me

Well it's about time I kick my butt in high gear and do what I know is best for me. In my last blog I commented about getting out of my gym membership back in NC and getting into Curves here. Here's the deal. When I signed my 3 year gym contract back in Oct 2009 I had no idea I would be moving from NC. I mean J made it seem like we were going to be there forever! So they had told us (Gintia and I) that if we happened to move military or otherwise, as long as we were within 30 miles of a fitness center that was a part of their "Spa Network" we could go there. However if there wasn't one within 30 miles, they would cancel the contract. I called the gym that is associated with them here and the man on the phone said they were moving soon and changing their name. My pastor's wife also goes to this gym and she told me that they will be getting rid of the water aerobics and going strictly machines and weights. Plus they don't have childcare. I need something besides just the eating healthy part. Yeah, I can do walking, but that's good in addition to going to the gym. I would love the opportunity to get away from the kids for an hour or so to work out and concentrate on me. Does that make me selfish? I don't know. I just know the kids drive me crazy. So we shall see what comes of it when I call the coorporate headquarters and try to get out of the contract. If not, well I will be going there. I'm not gonna waste 50 dollars a month.
Also, I've been doing good in switching up what I eat and drink. I've cut soda almost completely out. The only time I drank any was when I was at a church fellowship and I only had one can. Other than that it's been water and those little crystal light packets that you add to a bottle of water for flavor. Also I've really cut down on portion size of my meals, and eating more salads with dinner. Instead of grabbing a bag of chips I grab the bag of grapes from the fridge for a snack. It's been hard and I've really been trying. This whole medical ordeal has really been an awakening for me!

To Whom It May Concern

So I've started this thing just as a sort of journal of what's going on in my daily life. I don't know that anyone would be interested in reading it but, what the heck.
Things the last week or so have just been so overwhelming that it's been hard to catch up on things. Last Monday I went to a new Dr. so I could have my Thyroid checked. (Side note: I was told I had thyroid problems and was put on meds about a month before leaving NC.) My blood pressure that day was really high. After two pills a bp check twice more they finally let me go but wanted me to come in Wed and Fri for BP checks. On Wed it was still a bit high and after I had left the office the RN called back to say they wanted me to see the MD the next day. So Thurs when I saw the MD he had 2/3 of the lab tests back. In addition to high blood pressure the MD told me I have type II diabetes. Great. But I have no one to blame but myself for all this crap. I knew it would happen one day just not so soon. I should have just sucked it up and went to the gym myself regularly. I just hated going by myself.
Today I had the additional blood tests taken to see what my average sugars have been over the last couple years and something else I can't remember. We shall see what comes of it. Needless to say I've been eating way less and a lot more healthier since I found this stuff out. And I am calling my gym back in NC to see about cancelling a contract with them and starting Curves here. But we'll talk about that in the next blog.
So in addition to all this medical stuff, J and I are still trying to find a place and we still haven't sold our house in NC. And I also found out we won't have any medical insurance March and April. The only insurance we may get is going to cost us $2300 for three months coverage and we are not sure what to do. It's not like we have that kind of money saved up yet or laying around. Late Tuesday evening (early Wed) I also found out my only living Grandpa on my side of the family passed away suddenly. That was a very rough day. I also started getting sick with this cough, congestion, throat junk. It was hard to breathe and because of my BP I wasn't allowed to take anything. Last week was really a nightmare... blah. But I'm feeling better today and have the energy to get things accomplish (if I ever stop blogging, lol). On to bigger and better things! Till the next time...

GG